25th entry

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.. heyy~ i'm back.. in my loveable little college.. TUN GHAFAR'S BARBER.. hmmm~ it's been more than a week and its sooooo HACTIC !! damn..!! i've been busy lately with my posponed tutorial and alk's tasks and alll ;)  i did not went on facebook and i missed it already :(  and most important is.. i miss BA'IM~ a lot. :((  and oh well.. today is his 16TH BIRTHDAy..!! this entry is special for you ISMAIL IBRAHIM.. (n_n)


HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAYY!! <3 <3 <3


i wanted to be the 1st to wish youu~ but what to do? i did not get that oppurtunity.. oh well~ at least i wish right..? through aishah or fahmi or anyone laaa~ whatever =,="  i am in TOTAL dilemma..!! i have a friend who i like once.. but then, he left me so.. byebye to him.. but then he came back.. and he's like a psycho-pathetic-brat-who-is-desperate-for-love..? okaayy~ FUCK HIM..!!  heyy awaakk~ saye tak faham awakk laa.. and takkan pernah faham.. cube awak ckap straight.. kan bagus..? NO misunderstanding and whatever kan? kan kan? hm hm.. pape je laaaa~ :((


i guess that's all for today.. malas laaa nak tules panjang panjang.. =,=" byebye :)

24th entry

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.. heyy~ we meet again.. in my boring ol' piece of garbage! lolx. what am i gonna say today? haaa~ let me talk shit bout my sis's wedding preparation.. everything seems fine.. ; )  very very tiring though.. but SATISFIED! yeahh~ HAHA ;p  just now syed and syuk came to 'lepak' at my house.. *bajet nak study lepak laaa* but siriusly, we're siriusly studying just now. PHYSICS *shit* HISTORY *craps* CHEMIST? *oke syed sorunk je kud* but best aaa.. dieorang ajar best gilaa laa.. dah laa funnay nak mati ..!! seb baekk tak kenaa epilepsy je.. ;p HAHA. nothing much happened today.. i guess maybe that's all kud. tade idea laa nak merepek pasal ape. gotta go make some panda eyes more ;p




p.s awaaaakkk~ sory kalau tadi saye kacau awaaaakk.. ingatkan awaaaaakk free.. saye saje je antar awaaaakk gamba tuu.. so that awaaaakk tauu yang awaaaakk still rapat dengan saye.. ; )  soryyyy gilaa gilaa. 

23rd entry

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.. hello my peeps !! i don't know why .. but i felt relief todayy .. maybe because i learnt thaaaat i had let go of my pass .. and i had made a decision to move on .. like he did .. *kan awaaakkk ? ;)*  it's time for me to move on and live life to the fullest .. go lalala on and on during exams .. playing shit in tests .. okeeyy ~ *aku bodoh*  fine fine .. me myself am confused why laa did i get myself into trouble by registering at the f*&%-ing MALACCA place whatever does people call 'it' .. i call it 'hell' .. my results are going to knock at my damn door step latest by next week .. *memang laa da cuti 2 minggu je bodoh!* and i already prepared myself with 3hours of non-stop babbling from my maaaa .. 2hours non-stop nagging by my kakak .. and zero hours of nothing from my abah ..  *thanx abah!* 




tuuu diaaa ~ this what happens if your house is full of lecturers .. and babblers .. =,=" and engineers .. usually people say that engineers are silent ? okeeyyy ~ mereka sangat silap salah auta dan fitnah !! my family are babblers *including me* but lets exclude mee from d picture plezz ? heh =,="  i am such a loser and a L A M E person with pretty millions of L A M E excuses for each of my actions .. *okeyy aku da ckap da aku ni bodoh* so .. call me lame or l-a-m-o would do .. ;p  




okey laaa .. its nearly dust .. and i am damn sleepy maaann~ BAAAMM !! nyte nyte ;)

22nd entry

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.. heyy semuaa~ saye tidak buleh tido ini pagi lorr.. sobsob T_T  taktau mengapakah ., but maybe sebab terlalu happy ? okeyy ., nad ., jangan over reacting okeyy ? awaaakk ; ) nak tau tak ? sebenarnyee ., saye heppy gilaa awaaakk tegor saye pukul 1 pagi tadii ? okeyy ., weird ~ but sumpa !! awaaakk tau tak ? time awak antar wall post tu kann *okeyy kantoi*  saye melompat lompat sensorunk sampai parents saye pun tejage coz tekejut .. *yelahh , da kalau sye yang lompat .. alamatnyaaa ?* HAHA. yang penting saya heppy gilaa aaa tyme tuu .. memang bahagiaaa sangat ..




tapi saye ade perasan something .. maybe awaaakk perasan or saye sorang je syok sendiri .. tapi , kite da ta semesra dulu kan ? alaaa~ tape laa kan .. saye yang mintak jadi macam ni kan ? bukan salah awaaakk kalau awaaakk tak tego saye sekalipun .. bukan salah awaaakk kalau awaaakk nak jauhkan diri awak dari saya .. tapi , saye nak awaaakk tahu yang saye heppy bilaa awaaakk heppy.. and saye nak awaaakk bahagia dengan sespe pun yang awaaakkk pilih .. sebab dieorunk mesti antara manusia yang lebeh baik budi pekerti ., sopan dan ayu ., dan yang penting ., yang bulehh membahagiakan awaaaakk kan ? dieorunk mesti tak akan kecewakan awaaakkk dan sakitkan ati awaaaakk kan ? 






awaaaakk .. saye nak awaaakk tau .. saye ta penah menyesal mengenali awaaakk .. saye ta penah menyesal menyukai menyayangi dan mencintai awaaakk .. sebab saye akan lakukan nyee smpai bila bilaa .. walaupun maybe kite da ta mungkin bersame kan ? tapi saye arap awaaaakk jumpa perempuan yang baiikk untuk awaaakk ..






sebab ~ awaaaakk ni baaaaaiikkkk sgat ..
dan sangat penyabaaa ..
and sebab itulah tade sape yang buleh gantikan tempat awaaakk .. 
dalam ati saye ..
maaf kan saye kalau saye banyak sakitkan ati awaaakk ..
tipu awaaaakk dan buad awaaakk kecewa ..
saye memang selfish .. tu sebab saye ta rase saye sesuai untuk awaaaakk ..
yang baaaaiikk ni .. maafkan saye ..










p.s  tapi , saye nak awaaakk tau yang saye da lepaskan awaaakkk .. kembangkan lah sayapmu dan terbang tinggi ; )

21st entry

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.. to 'him' who always reads my entries.. this is for you.. so., *please terasa okayh..?* 
















Whenever it rains..


I keep on thinking of you..


Because you always make me warm..


Whenever it shines..


I always remember your smile..


Because it always make me comfortable..


My superhuman..


You will always be in my heart..


When you left..


I felt so alone..


But i keep on trying to stand on my own two feet..


I realize that i kept on falling..


But i know that your love will always be there for me..


I got the strength from our memories..


The memories that we had built together..


I got the strength from your wisdom..


I got the strength from your love..


















To 'him' who always stalks me.. i know that you will always do.. To 'him' that i've once and FOREVER be in love with.. To 'him' that i will always wait for.. for my whole entire life..




















p.s i LOVE you.

20th entry

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.

saye dah slim..?? tipu tipu..!!

haha. nak nengok..? 

meh meh nengok reramai.. then cumment kayh..?

XD ngeeee~

ouhh i love this dress :)

kegilaan secara maksima ;)

mate boolat O.O

ayu la tu..? konon laa =,="

i wish i could smile like this again :)

19th entry

ASSALAMUALAIKUM. entry kali ini adalah di dalam bahasa melayu. *bapak skema ayat* okayy.. whatever~ suka.. sayang..dan cinta.. 3 perkara yang sangat berbeza kan? kita sangat senang dan mudah untuk  suka pada sesiapa pun. lebih kurang macam admire la kan? tapi, kita betul betul sayang dia ke? okayy., itu satu tanda tanya kan? :) dan kita sayang pada orang yang sayang kita.. biasanye laa.. kan? kalau orang kate dia sayang kita..  kita akan reply 'yea yea.. aku pun sayang kau jugak' i mean., sayang itu skop yang luas kan? tapi.. cinta? cinta itu hanya untuk seorang sahaja dalam hidup kita kan? dan saya amat amat amat positif yang saya hanya cintakan 'dia' sahaja. sape tu? sape makan garam terasa lah masinnya. sape makan cili terasa lah pedasnya. sape makan gula terasa lah manisnya. pada si 'dia' yang selalu baca blog saye yang macam sampah ni.. saye cuma nak cakap saya SUKA..SAYANG..DAN CINTAKAN awak sorang je.. walaupun saye banyak lukakan hati awak.. kecewakan awak.. tapi, saya tahu.. awak sorang je yang ada dalam hati kecik saye ni.. walaupun awak dah lepaskan saye.. saye sorang je yang taknak lepaskan awak.. awak.. tanpa awak.. saye ni bukan sape sape.. tanpa awak.. saye bukan orang pun.. even manusia pun bukan.. separuh diri saye pergi bersama awak.. pada si 'dia'  tolong terasa ae.. sebab entry ni untuk awak.. ^_^






p.s  saya tak malu untuk katakan yang saya hanya cintakan awak seorang sahaja dan hanya awak yang ada dalam hati ini.