idop ni penuh cabaran en? hm hm. kite harus always face it dengan beraninye la kan? tapi, ade sampai one point that maybe we could not face our probs anymore. but, nape orang paksa kite hadapinye jugaaa? what if, we just cant handle it? living in TGB  is a nightmare! for me.. i hate it. i lost everything! my pride, my joy, my happiness! and even my success. i wan't to get out from here. the thing is, why can't anyone understand my feelings? i just wanted to be normal. like everyone else. i dont want to be like these tgb students. they have NO LIFE! i repeat~ NO LIFE!!! i want to feel life.. i want to feel happy.. i want to feel home.. i cant stand it here. its just too hard for me, that i cant face it anymore! i hate it when people force me to live here. to try and be happy here. the thing is.. i cant! i just cant! i'm a determined person, when i say i dont want to be here.. it means, i dont want to! it sucks to think back why am i here? 


people say i have a lot of opportunities if i'm a tgb student. the thing is, if i do not get straight a's.. then its just the same right? i wont get that opportunity.. =,="  so, why cant i decide where do i want to succeed? i want to succeed out there.. not in here.. not in this jail of terror! living here is like hell for me. why cant i be in another place which is much more happier for me? i cant study in a stressed mode. being unhappy and stressed affects my studies. period! my results all went down the drain. i cant focus in classes. i cant concentrate. i cant understand what i'm learning. its hard. very hard for me. i just want to be home. i dont want to be here. i just dont want to. i want to be beside my parents. i just want to be at home. i just want to be me. i cant stop myself from crying. what happened to me? am i ruining my life? am i ruining my future? ouhh blame them for turning me into somebody i dont even know. 


guys n girls. listen up! tgb sucks. dont ever apply here. conclusion: boarding school is just a horror! i want to be at home. i just want to get out from here. i just want to be some place i can smile. i just want to be some place that i feel comfortable to study. i hope my parents could understand. i just hope they could understand what i'm going through. i just hope that i'm out of here. i just hope i could be at home.