7th entry

ASSALAMUALAIKUM., hey peeps..! ^_^ seems that it's been a day since i last post my entry.. HAHA. now, i'm in school =,=" whatever~ i miss HOME sooooo much..!!!! TGB's life suxx.. but maybe sometimes.. adventures could be interesting.. :) oh well., talking but my 'leadership' career in TGB.. i'm NOT a ldp.. or a bwp.. or even a badar.. =,=" i'm just a simple ALK kid.. hehe :p  it's been a dream come true for me ouhh.. heee~ *aku en sukasuka susunsusun barang neyhh.. and aku en sukasuka buat perkhidmatan neyhh* HAHA. o well o well., i miss PH so damn much.. my friends.. my teachers.. my juniors.. my seniors.. oh, i miss them alright.. hands up! :) no doubt.. i wonder if THEY miss me..? HAHA. but yeah i know, i am missed by everyone.. HAHA! *syok sendiri boleh ark.?* 

heeee~ i miss eypowh.. =,=" i miss hangin' out with my friends there.. :) i miss those days.. i miss a someone.. someone who use to be with me no matter high o low.. someone who's been there if i'm stressed out.. someone who's been there being my crying shoulder.. thanx.. A LOT! :) you've been a great person to me.. and i'm sorry if i did anything wrong.. -.-  okeyh.. enough tears already.. :) wokeyh.. talking bout TGB..? *boleh laa kowt* people here are so damn smart and intelligent okeyh? i felt like i'm the most stupid and dumb student here okeyh? lost my self-confidence.. and blahblahblah.. HAHA. even the teachers here do not recognise me.. okeyh, whatever? maybe the teachers only recognise me as a student who is always active in class.. 'as usual' *eh eh jap jap.. bukan active larr.. bising jewr.. HAHA* classmates..? they're okeyh.. we girls., we're unite..! them boys..? *PERGI MATI SEKARANG..!!* maybe some are okeyh., but most of them are like shit okeyh..? 

seniors..? okey i guess..? some are okey.. but some are like chicken ass.. but most of them are a thumbs up for me :)  but i guess i prefer seniors in merbok and ph more than seniors here.. =,="  i miss kak e'en okeyh..? so much..!! HUHU.. wonder if she remembers me or not..? here in TGB., my debating career went down the drain.. i did not pass the audition so., automatically i'm not in the team.. it's sad really.. not doing something that you REEAAALLLYY love.. :'(  but hey.! its not the end of the world right..? :) i suxx in academic already.. i got my results already..   they were really really bad.. i've never gotten such marks before.? i even nearly failed my ENGLISH..! what theee..??!! i don't really understand the answer scheme here.. its too strict and too ruler straight okay.? it's just weird.. veryy weird.. =,="  maybe this a test for me from Allah.. The Almighty.. :)  it's a test that i have to go through strongly with Allah's help.. one and only from him.. 

ya Allah ya Tuhanku

kau berikanlah aku keputusan yang cemerlang dalam peperiksaan

sesungguhnya Kau Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang

namun, jika itu terlalu besar bagiku

maka, engkau benarkanlah aku agar lulus sepenuhnya dalam peperiksaan

tapi, jika kegagalan yang Kau kurniakan padaku

maka, jauhkanlah aku dari sifat patah hati dan putus asa

dan berikanlah aku semangat agar terus berusaha

untuk mencapai kejayaan

dan jadikanlah aku salah seorang daripada hamba-Mu yang bersyukur

amin amin amin ya robal-alamin :)

to all my friends.. do practice this prayer as it is one of our effort in asking Allah's 'hidayah' to gain success and obtaining good results.. do not give up in asking for Allah's help as it will make you regret for your whole life.. :) imagining you've been asking for Allah's help 99 times.. then, on the 100th time you give up., but that is when you're prayers are accepted.. wont that be a loss..? for me.. it will.. may my little tazkirah could give ya'll out there a spackin' on your head.. 'bout our efforts on asking help from Allah.. our creator.. The Almighty :) walluahuallam..