HAHA. i'm okay and tipsy top stable right now. to think back, my previous actions were kinda stupid and immature. shouldnt have done that ya know.. ; ) *bodoh betul diri ini. hmm hmm. thanx to akak, dhir, auntie nyah, uncle khairun and all who helped.. thanx a lot for supporting me.. LOVE YOU! <3 and and thanx to inche MUHAMMAD ZAKI! for bringing back the sunshine in my day. ^_^ 

even though my results sucks like ever. i guess, i'll never know those who got much more worst than me. hm hm. i guess i was a little bit fucked up with life sometimes. haha. unstable metobolism huh? ;p so much for the motivation doe. i just hate boys and schoolmates. no offence, but this fairytale wonderland isnt so everlasting afterall? maybe i should focus more on my OWN life and religious facts. : ) that might help me put my mind off things a lil bit. XD 

thinking of my journey to Mekkah this December, i just cant wait. i hope i could be better though in the future. i sure do wanna change. to become a better Nadhrah than before. to become the more sophisticated Nadhrah and to become the more nice Nadhrah than before. there are some things that i'm trying to change and not to do anymore..

1. cursing and swearing HAHA

2. lazy bum bum ;p

3. too emotional that i may affect the people around me

4. more caring bout my family rather than myself

5. less selffish please : )

6. just stop cursing and swearing

7. i wanna always say nice words

8. more muslimah than before

9. i dont wanna be tough like a boy

10. i just wanna be a good muslimah

some people ask me whether i'm gonna wear a 'tudung labuh' or what so ever when i'm back from Mekkah.. and i just smile. if that's what Allah wants me to be and if thats Qada' and Qadar then, i'll just wear it. (n_n) if my changes is only on my attitude, then, that's just fate : ) but before i go, i wanted to say sorry to this someone special. i've been trying to talk to him yet, i didnt have the strength to do it. 

awak, if you're reading this.. umm~ i just wanna say i'm really really sorry. i know i wont be able to beribadah in peace without hearing you say, yes i forgive you. awak, if i call you, if you know its me.. then, please do say.. 'ejat dah maafkan myra'. i'm truly soulful sorry for whatever i did to you. i know it was unfair and selffish and all. maybe thats why my life sucks and was ruined when i lost you. maybe thats true what people say about berkat kan? : )

to; ahmad aizat baharudin

saya betul betul mintak maaf kat awak atas semua salah silap saya. saya tahu selagi saya tak dengar awak cakap awak dah maafkan saya, saya tak akan beribadat dengan tenang kat Tanah Suci nanti. saya harap awak dapat maafkan saya. takpe, saya doakan kejayaan awak nanti : )

awak, terima kasih. atas semuanya. (n_n)